Hallo! How are you going? It has been a wee while and I hope you have been happy pursuing the things that matter to you.
I have a tune in my head that I am trying not to write to because I am not sure how you will interpret it and I can’t name it. In any case, I have gotten rather busy again and the balance I was seeking does not seem to have been shaken by the rapid return to full steam. I am curious about it to be honest. I feel like I could sleep for a week but aside from the shrinking minutes, tiredness is the only price I pay. For the moment…
But I have a theory that rings true and it might do for you! Ahem, stop rhyming… But what I have found that is different is this: I have been consciously staying here. Right now. This eternal moment. The one in which I am expansively infinite and the world is stunningly beautiful. This moment, the one in which the blankets warm my feet and my throat itches, the computer keys give way with a soft click beneath my finger tips and the red line breaks the black and white monotony as I occasionally mistype. The smell of old dog fart wafts in and my nose wrinkles. The smell of coffee sends that less pleasant fragrance away. The smooth porcelain of my cup touches my lips and deliciousness floods over my tongue. There is a chill on my arm and then a cool breeze tickles across my cheeks and nose and my face stretches in response to a smile as I watch my cat sleeping on the old musty blanket at the foot of my bed.
This moment. When I am not panicking about something that has already happened or trying to circumvent some imagined event in the future. The now-ness of it all is soothing. I am doing what I am doing and all else can await it’s allotted moment.
Such a vast difference from the heightened self judgy angst. You might wonder how I got here. I read books, listened to podcasts, changed my task manager system and saw someone to help develop my tool kit. It’s not perfect yet and it’s early days. Don’t get me wrong, stressy moments break through. In reality it is healthy that they do, in moderation (otherwise how will I escape a lion that wants to eat me?). Sometimes I have to work really hard to catch myself before I spiral again to that hard place where anxiety reigns. I don’t always manage it and that is okay. I consciously come back and take a deep breath and work at reclaiming my peace in this moment. I’m going to keep practicing because I have an inkling I’ll be happier for it 🙂
What are some of your tips when you feel a little overwhelmed? Or even a great deal overwhelmed? I would love to know.
“Fear keeps us focused on the past or worried about the future. If we can acknowledge our fear, we can realize that right now we are okay. Right now, today, we are still alive, and our bodies are working marvelously. Our eyes can still see the beautiful sky. Our ears can still hear the voices of our loved ones.” ~ Thich Nhat Hanh